Backing Up is Hard to Do - A transparent look at life from my perspective.

The following really is not intended for any benefit for readers. It is meant to allow me to see my thoughts in a media that I have a connection with. Feel free to skip this post - you won't be missing anything important. I've been a college student for a long time - a REALLY LONG time. Starting late, and trying to tailor fit a degree plan that fits me has been fraught with exhausting obstacles. Lately, actually, the last two years, I have been struggling with coursework, or, more accurately, fitting coursework into my schedule. As a husband, father, pastor, ministry leader and friend, my plate is full as is my satisfaction with life. So why the struggle, I wonder? It hit me today. I struggle with coursework because I have never been a scholar, (I passed high school with mainly C's & D's) I'm an audible and interactive learner and, most importantly, I am already living my dream. I've realized that all I've ever really wanted in life is to be a husband, father and pastor. Mounting student debt for classes which are purported to enable me to do that which I'm already doing and have been doing for nearly 5 years has become very disheartening. While there is something to be said for finishing what I started, I am beginning to question the cost - both financial and physical. Continuing classes for the sole purpose of keeping large loans at bay doesn't seem like such a healthy option anymore. My college has been awarded major grants which go toward larger and more beautiful buildings and facilities while tuition increases follow suit. Honesty time, I am completely burnt on school and completely hooked on being a husband. father and pastor. For the sake of my sanity and health, again, both physical and financial, I need to make some changes in regard to school. If I must choose, I'm choosing people. The people that comprise my family and those entrusted to my care as their pastor. Battling through coursework is too much like backing up.